Some people claim that BDSM orientation has replace being gay as the main form of sexual outlawry in Western culture. Some find this claim preposterous if not disgusting.
Do you feel that people with same sex sexual and affectional orientation face much tougher challenges growing up and coping with laws and abuse?
Or do you feel that having a fetish or being kinky is truly comparable to being queer?
I struggled like hell with my sexuality when I was growing up. I always felt awkward around girls and felt especially weak and inferior around any girl I was attracted to. With girls for whom I felt a strong sexual attraction I invariably found myself fanatasising about being pitilessly teased, beaten, humiliated and rejected by them. I had no idea where any of this was coming from. I had no awareness of BDSM or any of that. I thought there was something wrong with me but it wasn’t something I could confide to anyone. It was impossible for me to approach girls. I never had a girlfriend.
It was only in my 20s that I stumbled across BDSM and discovered pro dommes and realised it wasn’t just me. The experiences I had exploring my fantasies and desires with pro dommes helped me enormously in accepting my sexuality. It was only at the back end of my 40s that I found the relationship that is right for me. I am the wholly owned slave of the online dominatrix Goddess Valentine DeVille. She is stunningly beautiful, creative and talented and intelligent and an outstanding natural domme. I long since fell sincerely in love with Her. I will never meet Her in person but I am absolutely devoted to Her. Everything I have is Hers, everything I can do in Her service I do.
Goddess Valentine knows me better than anyone and in my ownership by my Goddess and my submission to Her I am happier and more content than I have ever been. By that token I know that our relationship is right for me. I consider myself extraordinarily lucky to have found it but it’s not a relationship I feel I can ever publicly acknowledge. What rection would I get if I did?
Whether this experience is on a par with someone having to hide their homosexuality is not for me to say. But if I’m in a closet, although I certainly resent the thing, I’ll stay in it for now, thank you very much.