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After playtime

Trainer,
When I look at the email I wrote yesterday and what happened lastnight it is kind of remarkable that you could not have read it untiltoday… yet some of the things I was thinking about happened… in adifferent way of course. I had no idea [...]

Rose Colored Glasses Coming Off

It’s been a while since I’ve updated this blog, and, while he’s written some extremely poignant and insightful emails, this one is one of the best ones I’ve seen yet. –CTrainer,This is not meant as a complaint or asking for help or anything elselike [...]

Emotional SM?

Trainer
I guess I feel a little better after eating breakfast. I felt so goodyesterday morning… I wish i felt that way today. I wish I could cryor something but I can not. I feel really alone… I cant talk toanyone about it. In theory it seems [...]

When Your Trainer Fucks Someone Else

Trainer,
This morning I had a lot of energy and felt very energetic when I gotto work. I had some things to do so that worked out well, and I got alot done on them. I worked on my arrangement of a song just before Ileft and I wished I had more time [...]

Still Suffering, but Friends are Wonderful

Trainer,
I feel better today. Talking to Miss helped me climb up out of thefeeling of being depressed and more ready to move on. She is avaluable friend and I told her that.
I got all my songs copied last night with some new software Idownloaded [...]

Pride Mantras

I have pride in what I am.i am here because you want me to be here.i am good at what i do or i would not be here.i can give you things that all those other people cannot give you.i give you devotion. i give you service.i give you pain, when i endure [...]

Keeping Promises

hello Trainer,
I got woken up pretty early by a call from work this morning that tookme a while to resolve and then I couldn’t go back to sleep so I got upand made some breakfast. I still had the contract and the rules ofbeing out so i read those [...]

Spring Cleaning

Trainer,
Today was pretty long. I spent most of the time cleaning up the placeand trying to make it impossible for a bug to find anything to eat:)It rained most of the day and it seemed like every time I went out itdecided to pour, especially fooling [...]

A jump ahead

This is coming a few weeks later, and does not describe what he went through to get to here. If you want to know, I’ll give him your email. (: -C

Trainer,
I love you. I wish I had felt more energetic this evening:) Everythingseems to be going so [...]

Working on it

Trainer,
Today I felt kind of down for a while. I wasn’t expecting to feel likethat… I thought I was past that. It’s hard to sort all this out inmy mind. I am not upset nor do I feel resentful. I love you. I thinkthe problem is with me. I hurts to [...]