Last night Mistress allowed me to penetrate Her and then gave me a choice. I could cum in Her, in which case I would face a roll of the dice today, or I could withdraw without orgasm, and not have to roll the dice.

I chose not to cum. Those canes hurt. Once I told Mistress this, and remained inside Her, She turned up the pressure a bit, and said I must withdraw within what she deemed to be two minutes, otherwise I would face the cane anyway. I did not push it too hard (no pun intended) and after a deliciously warm but relatively short pleasure I withdrew safely and we slept.

I am definitely a better slave to Mistress when I have not cum, and I prefer to avoid the dice. My arse has cuts in it from where Mistress has laid on the cane.

Crossroads and choices

Orgasm or Cane?
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One very easy way is the ‘fucking-pole’ we have. It is a wooden plank,
mounted on the floor and standing up. At cock-hight there is a hole in
it, about one inch wide. The size of the hole is such that i can puch
my penis through when it is flaccid. I then must fuck the hole. When my
penis becomes erect, it becomes very difficult to move it to en fro,
and when my penis swells to ejaculate it becomes stuck. It took us
several experiments to find the exact diameter, but now it worked
perfect. Very painful and very frustrating because i can’t move when
it is most important.

My Mistress wants to learn me more control to withhold my orgasm. For
training this we use electrodes. I get a rubber ring around my dick,
just behind the head. At the underside there is a small piece of copper
that is the first electrode. The second electrode is a little copper
plate just in front of my dick, attached to the rubber ring bit a piece
of wood. When i start to ejaculate my cum closes the circuit and i get
a very strong shock that seems to reach my balls (several 9.5 batterys
power the system). To make me cum with this we use a penis vibrator. I
am never allowed to fuck or masturbate.

Making Orgasms Painful
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I awoke in the night about 4 times with attempts at nocturnal erections. It’s been so long since I’ve had any experience with a device, the body has fallen back into that habit.

This is no concern of mine today though. I get up for the day still very close to spacy from the the beating, capturing (collaring) and caging that I experienced last night. As I stumble out of bed to try to shake off my body’s straining against it’s new prison, I realize in my head that the center of my being, my energy, my focus, chi, power core, whatever term you will, is still knocked out.

I’m walking around in reality with a feeling of everything being surreal. Did everything that happened, happen? Did it happen the way I remember? Or has my imagination intensified or justified what has happened to make it more than what it is?

…Treated, just the way I’ve always wanted and needed to be, something kin to a wild and dangerous animal (nothing new), but this time pursuied and captured, collared and caged (very new) Had I told her those secrets?
Those fantasies and desires that I have envisioned for so long? No. I’m sure I haven’t. There are some things still to close to the center of myself I’ve yet to reveal. I still insist, even after ALL that has happened, on subconsciously holding on to that shield, hiding behind that wall, that foul mantra:

I’m a pariah.

But no amount of previous subconscious conditioning, or ‘evidence’ can deny the facts. And, knowing my enemy within, it seems more likely I would try to play down the events that happened into something less than the level of acceptance they were intended to be (see last post). Rather than, use them to build up my esteem and break down that wall, and split that shield.

I reach down and try to ease the ache. The design of these devices has still come a long way. I know that I could pull out of the back without the ‘points of intrigue in place’ But alarms go off in my head if I even contemplate trying.

On my feet, the discomfort of the CB3K begins to avast. Even though I can feel it around my neck without my fingers, I have to reach up and touch the silver chain choker collar that is locked in place around my neck. My head threatens to swoon into subspace as I remember the events that put it there.

I remember after the fact calling her the ‘Steve Irwin’ of dominants. I had arrived on Thursday for my last playtime before Mistress was to go out of town. I knew the CB3K had arrived. She had even made the threat to put it on me for while she was gone. But I didn’t believe her. Or, I didn’t want to at some level, because the “pariah” inside me could ill afford it.

She took me upstairs and changed to a sleeveless shirt while I retrieved the toys and stripped naked. She started me out in the usual warm up position of me gripping the bar of her weight bench, but she laid into me very sternly from the start. The same intensity as the last, more unique beating I got. The cane bundle, the viper lash, and the hairbrush warmed me up. After came the first of my surprises, a blindfold. This was new. She told me that she knew it wasn’t total (because of the design I assume) but it was enough to keep me from seeing what was coming.
In truth, though I never told her, it was a total blindness because the material of the fold was against my eyes and I kept them shut out of reflex. It’s the theory that blindfolds, gags and such increase the sensitivity of the body. Shutting down one or two senses awakens the others to a new sensitivity. I found myself to be no exception to theory as she clamped on the clover clips and bent me over the bed to continue what she started on the bench.

What was different was I felt bent over even farther than usual. I couldn’t tell if it was my skewed perception because of being blind, or if she had positioned me a step further back from the bed to bend me over.

I decided she had indeed done so when I felt her leg between mine gently kicking the insides of my calves to spread my legs out further. God I felt so exposed and vulnerable. I lost my grip on holding my shame down to the fingertips when she made comments on my position. I chided myself internally. I must be some more slut to be all but spaced so easily.

Out came the floggers. The opening swings being between my legs. I had never experienced CBT until the first time with the paint stir the other night. I had never even considered it. Now my sense of shame deepens and threatens to swallow me as I realize that I am liking it. I bend my knees just slightly, but nothing gets past her when she’s in this mode. She laughs and hurls several comments on what a slut I am. After, the beating of my back and bottom continues.

Again like the last play session, she has me get on the bed in the position of my knees under me and my face in the mattress. The second surprise of the night is that she tries the long, wide, wooden frat paddle on me in a bruising spanking on my stretched thin buttocks. When the blows fall I yelp and my head snaps up in a reflex action. A couple of times she pushes my head back in the mattress, finally just getting on the bed with me, coiling a strong arm around my waist to control my struggles as she works on me with yet another salvo.

She releases me and tells me to rest a moment….A rest break! I think. It’s been a long time since she simply took a break instead of stopping there. I collapse on the bed and curl into a near fetal position. It’s a strange reflex that I don’t realize I do until after the fact. She smokes a cigarette
and I think she speaks to me some, but I don’t remember anything said. I’m floating blindly a haze of deep subspace.

After a time she instructs me to lie down flat, face down. I comply in that clumsy manner I do when the connection between mind and motor function is so overloaded. Thighs and bottom receive not only the wartenburg wheel, but the hairbrush as well. I don’t remember all the toys used. But I do remember a long and stern beating from my back down.

Then, it happened. I felt her climb on top of me. Sitting on my hips she bends low deep into my ear. I can feel her breaths for several moments and feel something cold around my neck….

The collar! Oh my god she is collaring me like this! Like you would capture a wild animal. Darted, or hooked if you will then worn out on the struggle of a harsh and delicious beating, then dazed and helpless, captured and collared.

It’s almost over by the time I realize just exactly what’s happening. When she is done she has me roll over. I reach up with thick, almost numb, trembling fingers to feel the heavy chain on my neck. The silver is cold, but in my perceptions it feels like it burns. A significant symbolism I would think.

I start to rise up, thinking that this was the end of the scene for sure. But a “where do you think you are going?” quickly has me lying flat again. Time for yet another surprise.

I don’t know what the toy was. I can’t say I would have known if I had been able to see it, but the beating I took on my chest and nipple both BEFORE and after the clover clamps were removed was one of the most intense sensations I can remember. So much so I was physically struggling to hold my position. It was exquisite. And not yet over. Moving down my body she spanked at my thighs and sex with the paint stir, then with her words, in that tone of voice I has spoken so much of, even without knowing her gaze, She opened the world beneath me, though I thought I was at the deepest end. I don’t have words for the sensation that her remark brought. I don’t have anything in myself to compare it to. But I know without question It was the Coup de Grace on my power core.

“Spread your legs like the slut you are!”

I obeyed, but I was too numb, to overwhelmed, to even cry. She beat my scrotum and my thighs with what I think was the same ‘new’ tool she had used on my chest and nipples. It hurt. Oh how wickedly and lovingly it hurt. Everytime we play I have a new favorite toy, And this time, I can’t even identify it.

That was the end of the scene. At least all I will speak of. Some time later I stood behind her in nothing but one of my airbrushed tee shirts that says “Intercourse You”. I’m holding the box with the CB3K in it and my poor, hazed mind is trying to calculate if I will please her, or push her by asking if she indeed wants this deed done before I dressed. Like I said not thinking clearly. It would have been nothing to undress for it if she wanted to do it in her own time later. I don’t know why I do that. But she did indeed have me put it on to stay as she threatened. Again, I have underestimated her.

This morning I chatted with Mistress. It was a long conversation where she cinched shut any hope of my sexual freedom. Not only is this device padlocked around me, but so is her will.
She made it clear she was going to tease me mercilessly, and at her whims. And that anything unfortunate, or compromising happened to or around the device, she would be most disappointed. I was still spacy before we talked, her words drove me right back down into deeper space again. I assured her I would not even look at the emergency key left behind.

The 12 Days of Chastity – Day One

First Day of Chastity Training
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To make it work you need to develop a plan, as I said, I communicated with many others and all but one agreed that this is something that should become a 24/7 part of the relationship. 24/7 is the foundation, it is what changes men for the positive because they shouldn’t have the opportunity to control their sexual release and this is one of the areas that the lady, mistress, keyholder or whatever you prefer to be recognized as must have absolute control of. Although the lady remains in control it is very important to remember that you and he are still a couple in a relationship, he is still the man and that shouldn’t be forgotten, your relationship only changes once you close the bedroom door. Life goes on as it always had, employment, financial, family issues and decisions; your dominance should not interfere in other areas though you will find that he on his own may react differently, often positively, as his feelings and emotions change.

Whether this is something that he initiated, the two of you mutually agreed upon or something that you requested from him – one thing is a necessity, there needs to be something for him to gain. He is giving up something that is a very important part of the males life, his sexual abilities – and for that you need to realize that he too should be rewarded, as well as you will, but obviously in a much different way. You know the things that he likes, that arouse him, put a smile on his face. Often times we find that there are things that really do not interest us that do him and considering the sacrifice that he is making you too can make sacrifices, like life, chastity needs mutual rewards and often you will find those things that you reward him with will lead to an increase in his being aroused and enhancing his over all demeanor. It could be massages or trying sexual things that he likes but you never desired to try. Changes in your appearance, how you dress, the make-up you apply, shortening your dress and for most men a lady wearing high heels heightens their happiness and arousal. He is making a permanent change in his lifestyle and you too may need to make some permanent adjustments so that he feels things are fair.

The Female Consensus

Managing 24/7 Chastity
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Interesting now it has been a good few days now since that conversation, already I feel my self slipping away from submissiveness , the cage really does help one get into and stay in subspace. It makes one (well me) feel like doing all these things, alas once I have access once again to my favorite toy many of these feelings go out the window.

It does work as advertised, it truly does but it also takes a lot of perseverance. It may not be the perfect answer for everyone but I can honestly say it seems to help us along. I wonder if just simply wearing it, Sarah recognizes I am doing something just for her, I know it satisfies some part of me, but I think I am past the kink aspect. Initially sure it was a kink that turned me on, and I admit for god knows what reason it still does turn me on, the idea of being unable to masturbate, at a woman’s mercy still excites me, but that is no longer my real driving force. The driving force is to make Sarah happy, and I guess my real motivation is to increase our intimacy, by whatever form it takes.

I also find that I am not so enthusiastic about giving Sarah hour long massages, I am not sure if this is a reaction from me because I WANT her to ask me to cage up again or not. Some would say that withdrawal of service is toping from the bottom. Perhaps it is, but I just don’t feel the same kind of servitude as I did before.

I do worry that this blog focuses too much on caging and not enough on a female lead marriage, but Sarah is leading the way. I am still encouraging this behavior however Sarah does ask me to make decisions, it is not entirely fair to ask her to have the burden of all decisions, but Sarah does make the decisions she wants to. …

My PMS

LFA & Chastity
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I have been in chastity for almost a year. Locked in a CB3000 with my wife-mistress holding the key. Or rather, hiding the key. I should say that we are over 60 both, so the heat of copulation does not burn as ferociously as it did before. But it burns. I initiated the idea of chastity. She thought it was odd, but not something to be rejected without some thought. And with thought, and with reading some web sites I showed her, she thought it was worth a try. So now I have been locked up for almost a year.

At first we had no set way of setting the duration of my caging. But after a few one-week and two-week lockups, I thought of another idea. I am submissive, of course, or I would never have gotten this far with chasitiy. My bright idea was that after we had finished with release and cunnilingus and copulation and ejaculation, all under her control, I would kneel at her feet and put on a blindfold. So on went the black silk scarf, tied tightly so that I could see nothing. Then she handed me a dice cup holding only one die. I threw the die against a cabinet, and it came to rest. Only she could see it. “Pick it up and put it way. Then wash and put your cage on. ”

So without knowing the number on the die, I put it back in the cup. Only she knew. Whatever it said, or whatever she said it said, would be the number of months until my next orgasmic relief. Months! I thought it up, and I would have to wait for the time to expire. And since I didn’t know how many months it would take, I was constantly serving and helping and pleasing and sucking and hovering around my adored lady, just hoping that at some point, I would please her and the time would have expired and I would get to ram my eager cock into her wet waiting cunt. Oh, God, it seemed to take forever.

If you do the math, the average number on that die will be 3 1/2. As low and one and as high as six. but on average, 3 1/2. So in an average year, my ramming and jamming and fucking would take place exctly three and four-tenths times. Occasionally it would be six months without a fuck! Could I be that submissive? Could I live that long between the fuckings of her sweet juicy cunt? Could I massage her and stroke her and go down on her pussy for six months without relief and without going mad? Without somehow jerking off in an unjerkable cage? Without getting out the cutters and breaking the lock or the cage? Could I do it?

That was the challenge of the length of chasitity that I had induced us to choose.

Notes on chastity and submission

One Year of Orgasm Denial
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Your husband – or boyfriend – has confessed to you that he wants you to lock his penis up in a CB6000 or other male chastity device.

You are shocked. What is wrong with the man? Are you in love with a sick pervert?

Is My Husband A Pervert?

Is My Man Crazy?
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You don’t need a fancy machine shop or a degree in mechanical engineering to build a chastity belt. You can easily build your very own chastity belt like the one shown above for less than $50 with just a few simple tools. The following instructions are for a male chastity belt, but can be modified to build a female chastity belt by eliminating the penis tube and modifying the front shield pattern slightly.

Homemade Chastity Belts

How to Build Your Own Chastity Belt
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When I realized that for Alexandra to take power over my penis in the most fundamental way might be something that I actually need it was inevitable that I’d look across the web to see what physical restraints were available.

(For those of you who will eventually find this entry out of context with the other notes about exploring orgasm denial with my beloved:

I could deny myself as an act of will. The danger is that I can easily see myself become so unsexualized that I no longer care if I have an orgasm. To psychically neuter me is not the goal. Physical restraint is – among other things – a feedback mechanism for insuring that enforced chastity isn’t asexual: that my desire remains, indeed that my libido is heightened.

This isn’t a means to turn me into a eunuch. If your goals in exploring male denial are demasculinization or you have some sort of purist’s agenda then you are on the wrong web page.)

Alexandra will tell you I’m a real BDSM sexual technology perv. Happily she humors me and also enjoys some of my discoveries. My “ouch” or look of humility matching her own pleasure.

You can read my various Essays on Male Chastity

Male Chastity Devices : Purpose & Logic
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Rule #2 The Key Holder will never use any drugs, tricks, or force to put the user in his CB. The user is at all times considered to be in the CB by choice and with his full consent.

Rule #3 The user will be considered to be the personal property of the Key Holder and as such will be totally nude except for the CB when engaged in conversation or chat and the only exception is when the user is in a public location. This is called being “PROPER!” The User will observe the Rules of the Magic Portal at all times. The user will consider the penis to not exist except for the pleasure and amusement of his Key Holder. The user will at all times refer to the organ as his MEMBER and should the word penis be required, he will refer to it as YOUR PENIS! (Key Holder Property!)

Rule #4 The user, as property of the Key Holder, will NOT ejaculate his SEED (semen) without permission. The seed are also considered to be the exclusive property of the Key Holder. All involuntary ejaculations and the reasons will be reported as soon as possible! The Key Holder will have absolute control of the user’s sexual functions.

Rule #5 The user will contact or report daily as required by his Key Holder. When this is not possible, user will report the possibility of not reporting prior to the condition. When unscheduled events prevent communication, the User will report as soon as possible.

Rule #6 The user will never resist or question the command to put on his CB! If there is some physical problem, user will report the situation and request instruction! When the user puts on the CB, he will close the locks to reaffirm his commitment and attitude! There is NO exception to this rule. The Key Holder may physically restrain the user and remove the CB and replace it any time. The user is to unconditionally surrender for bondage or restraint.

Rule #7 The Key Holder will never hurt or knowingly injure the user and is obligated to do all within the Key Holder’s power to maintain the health and well being of the user. User is to immediately report any medical condition or problem. The user is a valuable asset of the Key Holder and is to always be maintained as such.

Rule #8 The user may ask questions for clarification of instructions or situations not understood. When on line, the proper form for asking a question is to type “PLEASE?” and wait for the Key Holder to respond with “ASK.” If the Key Holder feels the question is inappropriate or untimely, the Key Holder will inform the user he will be given an answer later or that the information in not within the realm of his service. The user always has permission to ask a question but should never demand or expect an answer! The Key Holder should normally give a reason for withholding the answer but my simply say “UNACCEPTABLE” and that will end the discussion for the moment. The user may repeat the question in 24 hours as an indication that the answer is important to his proper service!

Rule #9 The user is the PROPERTY of the Key holder (Rule #3 above) and as such will be loved and protected as having great value to the Key Holder. The Key Holder will refer to the user as “Sweet Prince” to indicate respect of the person! This rule does not limit punishment when the user fails to please the Key Holder or violates one of the basic Rules. The Key Holder may also loan, assign, give, or sell the user to another TRUSTED Key Holder and the user is to obey as if all orders or commands are given by his original Key Holder. He will NOT be sold as a slave but to reimburse the Key Holder for previous expenditures of time or money in the training of the user.

Rule #10 The user will at all times consider himself to be a totally masculine male while in the CB. He will be a MAN in a belt and NOT a belted male slave. He will be expected to serve his Key Holder with unrestricted joy and always consider the Key Holder’s pleasure before his own! Some males enjoy or accept certain feminization training and the Key Holder may indulge the user in such activities but only to the extent the Key Holder chooses to do so. Any such fem training will be considered to be on the OUTSIDE of the user. The person inside will be considered to be male as long as a males genitalia are attached to the body and functional. The Key Holder will always OWN and control the user’s manhood!

Rule #11 The Key Holder may choose to have more than one user under their control. The user is never to be jealous, embarrassed or humiliated by the presence of another user! The user will eagerly perform any training required by his Key Holder! It is the specific duty of the user to show that his training has made him happy and he feels and believes that other males should enjoy the same experience! He is to be proud that he can assist in another male’s training! This service will be a special gift to his Key Holder.

Rule #12 The Key Holder may add additional Rules at any time. New rules will be discussed and clarified with the user.

simple contract:

from date (____) to (_____)
I the wearer (name) agrees to wear the cb for a (time ) {12 hours a day and have to have vaginal sex with the key holder every 12 hours to please wearer} or {for 30 days with out having sex that will please the wearer just the key holder}

The key holder (name) agrees to let wearer out if I use the one of the safe words ( 1 safety word) {about time, means it is getting to be all I can take} (2 safety word) { let me out or I will kill you stupid fuck head}

The key holder also agree to let the wearer out (times a week for hygiene) { 2 x a day} or {1 x ever 10 days}

I don’t know where the contract was first published. It was written by Ms.MacComb of Punished Cuckold Husbands

Chastity Belt Contract
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