Miss Babydoll writes about what for me is one of the deepest experiences within D/s – emotional S&M:
First, I have always enjoyed making boys beg. Teasing is at the core of My approach to domination and always has been, and emotional cruelty is just an extreme form of teasing—as playground teasing can also go from mild embarrassment to deep wounding. Second, over the past 18 months or so I have slowly gotten over My uneasiness about emotional sadism (oddly enough, I got past similar squigginess about physical sadism much earlier). I have discovered that I really enjoy shaming and humbling boys. I also have a fetish for teasing money out of them. The best part is getting to them to the point at which they beg and plead for more, addicted to the pain and shame and exploitation because of the intense release that follows (or more and more, climaxes) My infliction of them. These pleas from My subs are what I could call prayers to the Goddess in Her (My) wildest and cruelest form—Kali Durga, the Sexy Destructress, the Dancer on Men’s Faces. And often enough, though not always, She comes, and She fills Me.
When I manifest Kali Durga, the Dark Goddess, I find it difficult at times to restrain Myself from following through on My pet’s prayers for destruction. I am so attuned to My pet’s surrender, so filled with the joy of cruelty, that the thought of bringing him to that total ruin is thrilling. My senses are hyperacute, My nipples hard, My cunt wet, My body tensed yet fluid. I am full of a dark radiance, as if My blood has become crimson light. My brain is then a furled million-petaled rose of that crimson light, and every little vein in Me is a thorn that tears at My pet’s heart, because I know so exactly how to wound him, even as I have brought him to a pitch of sexual arousal and emotional excitement so extreme that he is literally shaking, barely able to speak. I know this sounds overblown and romantic, but My own exaltation is difficult to convey except in such terms, and the effect on My pet I am not exaggerating in the slightest.
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